5/15/2010 9:18am
Morning all.. Plz forgive me for not being here for these past few days, but once again, sadness has found a way into my heart & has disrupted my life. Late Wed nite, my Aunt Brenda succumbed to her battle with cancer.

I am numb at this point, and am suppressing the anger I have towards her staff of caretakers because I'm sure I dont know the whole story. After having lost both breasts, all of her hair, and all her weight, her long-distance treatments were beginning to work. She was up and about, laughing, joking, and living with the cards she'd been dealt the best she could, in my opinion.. never gained any of the weight back, but her hair grew back longer than mine!! Things were looking up.. until, God only knows why, they felt the need to change the treatment she was getting. Why?

In & out and back & forth to & from the hospital she went. It got to the point where she said that if she was going to die, she wanted to die at home in her own bed. How tragic is that!?!? Well, unfortunately, that simple wish could not be granted because during what turned out to be the final chapter in her struggle, she fell and broke her hip, so back to the hospital she went, but this time, too weak & too frail to even have that hip repaired, and with nothing more the doctors could do to sustain her, she didnt make it back home to her bed.

Arrangements are currently under way.. her wish was to be cremated because she said that in the end, she would have the last laugh at her cancer, and tho it physically ravished her body so cruelly, so much so that it was painful to even look at her, she said that she would not allow it to take her body completely. She wrote that she didnt want a funeral, so we will hold a memorial service for last respects and goodbyes.

Please keep my family & me in your thoughts and in your prayers.. and also, plz pray for a cure and for more effective treatments. I would not wish this illness on my worst enemy - and if you've ever seen how it can literally eat a person alive, to the point where there is virtually nothing left, I trust you would feel the same way. Thanks.



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4/20/2010 10:25am
Morning all..Im very sad today. Its hard to believe, but 1 year ago today, I lost my mother, sister, teacher, motivator, confidant, and best friend all in one, but Heaven gained a long-awaited-for angel. I dont know about any your grannies, but MY Grannie was the best.. and I just hope she knows that there was nothing more in this world that she could have done for or said to any of us to encourage, mold and shape us to be the ppl that she wanted us to be. Its up to us now. Rest in Peace, lil lady.. you are forever missed.



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