So how to start this damn thing... I have no clue so here goes. I'm not really good with words, most of the time I'm misunderstood. I am a masocist and a sadist. I do my best to stand up for what I feel is right in life. I am a very odd person, a die hard romantic, a body modifier and a gentle person.I'm soft spoken and shy. I blush easily and my giggle I've heard is addictive. People say that it's the quiet ones are the people that you gotta look out for.I play guitar, I started playing when I was 12 or 13, sadly I need to reteach myself. I pick up my mother's guitar on occasion, but that in itself is rare.I'm currently in the process of straightening up my life. I've made some mistakes and now I'm paying my dues. I'm doing what I can, sometimes it's not enough. Life is never easy and I'm learning that over and over with each passing day.My life revolves around music and coffee, I can not go a day without it.I drink alcohol very seldomly, but I do smoke cigarettes daily. There's another thing I need to work on. *sighs* So many issues and not enough time or money..Some people think of me as not normal because of the way that I act, talk or dress but that's fine with me, I am who I am. I hate when people sterotype each other. I am a girl who is not afraid to speak her mind and who knows right from wrong. My morals and standards I stand by. Once I get to know you and you get to know me, you'll see different sides to me that one wouldn't expect. Wether it be good or bad. Who knows, that's for you to decide.I don't care for talking about religion unless it's actually interesting. You have your beliefs, I have mine, now respect it.I am a writter and a poet to some. I'm in the process of writting a story and I'm currently at a stand still with it. Writters block is a bitch.I as all "normal" people struggle with the desire of wanting to love and be loved. I have my wants and then I have my needs. I am trying to not focus so much on my "wants" anymore, because I know that needs are more important.