Yes, I have a great big ass and teeny-tiny boobies. I wish so badly that it was the other way around.

My husband neglects me and my needs. I get nowhere near the attention from him that I’d really like to have. I do not feel at all desired or adored, I do not feel sexually appreciated, and I feel like when we have sex it’s just that and not the making love that I need it to be. I feel like a piece of meat to him. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE feeling like I’m objectified, but I don’t get that feeling from him, I feel like he just wants to fuck me and gives no thought to that connection we should have from it. He hasn’t caused me to have an orgasm in more than 2 years. We’ve been married for 7 years, so I would blame the 7 year itch but he works from home and almost never goes anywhere so I know there’s no other woman in his life. I check his computer history often and there’s nothing in there that would make me suspect that there’s something going on outside of our marriage. So I don’t know why I’m just another piece of furniture here. Even when I’m going down on him, he just lays there as if it’s nothing to him. And that makes me sad because that’s my most favorite part of making love. My next favorite part of making love is mutual masturbation, but when I play with myself for my husband he just doesn’t seem to have any interest whatsoever, so I usually just stop smiling and go to the bathroom to continue on until I have my own orgasm … alone. He hasn’t gone down on me in I don’t know HOW long. And THAT makes me sad too because I do sooooooo love to 69. I dress in the sexiest lingerie I can find, thong panties, G-string panties, see-through Y-string panties, teddies, silk, lace, satin, plain cotton panties, thigh-high boots, crotchless panties, garter belts, and so much more and never seem to get even the most remote reaction from him.

Other women always ask me why I don’t just leave him and find someone else. If you saw how big his cock is you’d know why I so love sucking it.

Am I really that unattractive? I try my best at sex and I know damn well I’m extremely good in bed. I know I give amazing head and I do swallow and will let him shoot all over my face and my boobs if he wants to, but he never does. As I said before I love to masturbate for him but he doesn’t care. I love to be filmed while masturbating and going down on him but again, he doesn’t care. I love to have pictures taken of me naked, but AGAIN, he doesn’t care. I’ve even offered to have sex with another girl for him and share him with her, both of which he has mentioned are his fantasies, but he won’t take me up on the offer. I’ve tried being as dirty as I can for him, even talking dirty, which I LOVE, but I get no reaction. What am I doing wrong? Am I ugly or something? Are my titties too small? What is it? Why has he lost all interest in me?

I got my clit pierced recently just to see if that would interest him, but it didn’t. I’m a woman who loves sex and I SOOOOOOOOO LOVE oral sex, both giving and receiving. Maybe more giving … I live for giving head. But when masturbating in front of the full length wall mirror becomes my most alluring part of sex, there’s something wrong. Don’t get me wrong, though, I do so love sitting there and playing with myself and watching in the mirror. I just wish my husband would love it too. I love to videotape myself masturbating and then watching it back on video and playing with myself to orgasm that way too. But again, I wish my husband would want to be part of that.

And I realize this is all far too much information, far too personal, to write in my about me section on a social networking website. But I also love talking about sex and the truth is I just don’t know what else to do with my frustration. Masturbating is getting old. Though I do so love it, I miss 69ing. I love to strip, I lose to tease, and I love to be everything there is for my husband. But everything there is doesn’t seem to be nearly enough for him and that leaves me with so much pent up sexual energy and not enough ideas of how to spend it. I can’t just cheat on my husband, but I miss the feeling of a man enjoying me giving him head as long and slowly and lovingly as I can, happily and gratefully swallowing his cum or having him shoot it all over my face and my boobs. And I WILL NOT cheat on him, so please don’t suggest the idea, because the answer is no. I just need to figure out how to deal with the problems in my marriage and how to get my husband to enjoy my pussy again as much as he used to, and as much as I enjoy his cock. I love it when he watches me kneeling between his legs while he’s sitting in a chair, watching me worship his cock, sucking it as if my life depends on it and looking up into his eyes, loving every moment of it. We used to do D/S stuff, roleplaying, I used to dress up in various outfits and still do, and we had all kinds of sex games we played.

Now, nothing.

Just bland, boring sex, when there’s any at all.

So now my vibrator and the bedroom mirror are my best friends. That and watching a HELL of a lot of pornography these days.

*sigh*

I make myself cum as many as 8 times a day these days, but it’s not fulfilling. I need cock … filling my mouth, fucking my pussy, slipping between my titties, cumming all over me. I need to be handled. I need to be bitten. I need my hair pulled while getting pounded hard, doggie style. I need to be TOLD to suck harder. I need my ass smacked. I need to be felt up in line at the grocery store. I need to be thrown on the bed and FUCKED.

And I need to feel desired.

I love getting fucked outdoors, in the car, in the shower (RAWRRRRR), in dressing rooms at department stores, and I do so adore giving head everywhere, in any place, at any time. I love to be TOLD GET ON MY KNEES and suck cock. I love to beg my husband to LET me suck his cock. I love being submissive. I love to be objectified. I love having my mouth fucked. And I love being a VERY, VERY WILLING sexual slave.

Oh, and by the way, my name is Beth. Not baby. Not honey. Not sexy. BETH. Please get it right.

P.S. This about me section won’t stay written this way for long. I’m just leaving it written this way for now because of how frustrated I am and how I wish for a solution to my stagnant sex life and marriage. Once I find one I will rewrite my about me section.