ok so i wake up like any normal morning in my room. everythings is basically in its place, thn i notice that im fully clothed. i ignored it as i go downstairs n c my dad n stepmom, patti, sittin on the couch drinkin their coffee. i say hi 2 them, but they dont respond. so i go n stand in the middle of the living room n say it again, n they still dont respond. theyre lookin at me, but it feels like theyre lookin thru me. thn it all goes black...
...thn i find myself at codys place. in his room. n theres cody n risa just sittin there, n risas cryin. codys holdin her n i said, "whats wrong?" n they dont respond. cody says, "risa its ok. hes got something better now maybe. besides he mightve wanted it this way." thn risa looks up n i c their eyes meet, n all risa had was a look of pure sorrow. thn everything blacks out again...
...thn i find myself in annies kitchen. annies leanin up against the counter w/ tears in her eyes as chanti n rachel r comfortin her. "annie its gonna b alright,"rachel says. "he did it 2 keep us alive." n i say, "who did what?" n i get the same result. so i yell it this time, n the same thing. thn chanti says, "its hurtin every1 annie. we gotta try n move on." thn annie replies, "i just cant believe hes gone." thn another black out...
...n i pop up in alyss living room. shes w/ kyle n their just sittin on the couch. she looks as tho shes been cryin as well, n she says, "y did he hav 2 do that? y did he hav 2 do it?" i wantd 2 ask again, but i figured id get nothin as an answer. so i just listened as kyle said, "he did it 4 us. he did it 2 save us. i think he did the right thing." "i just want him bak." alyss said. "i just want him bak." thus another black out...
..now im outside nick sargents house. n i c him n nick curtis walkin away, so i run 2 catch up w/ them. "cant believe it bro." nick s said. "i cant believe hes really gone." "yea," nick c said. "he was so fuckin crazy, but hes really gone." and another...
...n now im at sarahs house, in her room. i got scared whn i saw where i was. thn i saw her sittin on her bed, w/ nickie next 2 her. she was holdin somethin like a piece of paper, but it was really small. she was cryin, n i still didnt know y. "y did u hav 2 go?" she said 2 nickie. thn i saw that what she was holdin was a picture w/ me on it. "y did u hav 2 go n do that? y did u hav 2 die 4 us? y rob, y?" suddenly i felt as if my body was being pulled by my insides as i left sarahs house. me dead? how? y? whn? questions i needed answered, n i had a feelin like i was gonna get them...
...so now im here at what looks like a morgue standin in front of a table w/ a body on it. the smell was so horrible. i looked down at the toe tag n it read:
NAME: Robert A. Vrabel
DATE OF BIRTH: 05/08/89
DATE OF DEATH:05/08/07
CAUSE OF DEATH: Bullet penetrated the heart, but not instant death.
now i know what killed me, but y? i turned toward what was the head n pulled th cover off n i was starin into my own face. it was pale white, eyes closed never 2 open again, n so still. thn i saw where the bullet hit me. it was a pretty damn big hole, but y did i die? y? thn it blacked out again...
...thn i c every1. annie, risa, cody, kyle, nickie, chanti, rachel, every1. n they were surrondin something. so i got a closer look n i saw me layin on the ground, bloodied n everything. i was at the scene of my own death! n sarahs down holdin my head up, thn she asked, "y did u do it rob?" thn i, the dying me, say, "bcuz i love u all. bcuz i told u guys id take a bullet 4 any1 of u. bcuz i want u 2 live out ur lives. bcuz..........i love u........." thn i c me die. thn i feel a sharp pian in my chest. i look down 2 c it, n there was blood pourin out of me. thn i die w/ my real body.
