I just need to deal. It's not gonna happen..get over it! i have no idea why I cry about it. I guess its just because I am still lonely. It just sucks when things stop so abruptly...and I was just letting my guard down. Now...well, I don't know what. I just don't want to ruin things like last time. I don't want everything to be awkward. But I didn't really want to start this shit all over again...
