Deleted and blocked his number. Now she can't attack me for.something I didn't do. I'm working on getting stronger....

Watching The Longest Ride. Lol why can't I have Scott Eastwood ??? Sigh...a woman .can dream lol

Will post what I want when I want....if you don't like it, well you know where the unfriend button is. And if you send me a chat complaining about my post and not letting me reply, even more immature.

ex messaged me at 230 this morning. asking about my car issues, saying he cares and I attempted to burn bridges so I treated him like crap....I said how is me trying to move on and not be hurt by seeing you with your new girl treating you like crap? he says you drove me away and what we had was real...like what was the point in messaging me ?

talk about fucked up dreams...why the hell does the subconscious do that? woke up pissed off cause of it loo

friend zoned again....hanging out watching movies, we were kind of touching. moved a little closer and then he asked what my expectations were and if I had any beyond people hanging out and watching movies...lol see? it is me..

sent one last message and then blocked and deleted everything. still hurts like hell and how I view myself is still shot but now it's a start....

lol definitely sucks when the person you want after the person you trying to move on from doesn't want you. lol it is me

so shoveling snow at work, lookin all frumpy and sweaty ...the ex and the Amazon woman of his pull ups..marks for a minute and then slowly drives away with him lookin the mirror....why can't I ever be dressed to kill if I have to run into them? lol

when all else fails...chocolate cake is then answer

retail therapy is the best lol

maybe I should settle for content and comfortable. maybe passion isn't meant for everyone

yep...lol not ready to date...based off my reaction to seeing the She Devil and then him in the parking lot...one day at a time...one day at a time

got asked for drinks on Wed... why am I paranoid about this ?

so the dumb brod got "most valuable team player" at work just bc she did a bunch of training. got a trophy out it....ya....apparently karma isn't helping me out any

just all around exhausted....physically, mentally, and emotionally. really need to make a plan for my vacation days this year

just a heads up...will not respond if you start talking about your dick or what you would do to me and what we could do, etc etc....Not here for that....don't like that ? well you know where the unfriend button is

yeah this week has sucked. ya find out who your friends are....

trying so damn hard to move on....but this anger is still here...why does he treat her better ? what does she have I dont....why ? my mind is logical but wish this anger would go away

having a couple glasses of wine to take the edge off...lol I need a life