I've been holding my breath I've been counting to ten Over something you said I've been holding back tears While you're throwing back beers I'm alone in bed You know I, I'm afraid of change Guess that's why we stay the same So tell me to leave I'll pack my bags, get on the road Find someone that loves you Better than I do, darling I know 'Cause you remind me every day I'm not enough but I still stay

When you were standing in the wake of devastation When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown And with the cataclysm raining down Insides crying, "Save me now" You were there, impossibly alone Do you feel cold and lost in desperation? You build up hope, but failure's all you've known Remember all the sadness and frustration And let it go, let it go

I take one step forward, and two steps back It's always been like that It shouldn't be like that I'm trying to overcome myself Trying to work around this hell Two steps forward, and three steps back Why is life like that? Why am I like that? I'm trying to understand myself Trying to fight through this hell

Just walk away, make it easy on yourself. Just walk away, please release me from this hell. Just walk away, there's just nothing left to feel. Just walk away, pretend that none of this is real

Everybody pains Everybody grieves Everybody's making off like thieves Every soul's aching for release You're not alone Everybody lives Everybody leaves Everybody begs best on their knees Everybody's got the same disease No one's alone

going through some things. I won't be answering chats. Too much going on. Not sorry.

I don't want to die alone, I don't want to live forsaken. I refuse to let this go because my soul is breaking. I don't want to let you know that my heart is just so jaded. I refuse to let it show, I refuse to let it go. Wake me up when this is over. I'm tired of living life like it's a dream

there's just so much goddamn weight on my shoulders, all I'm trying to do is live my motherfucking life. supposed to be happy but I'm only getting colder wear a smile on my face but there's a demon inside

I'm back!

was offline for 3 weeks due to covid. won't be on much yet

just because you see me online doesn't mean I have the time to chat. sorry folks!

why don't y'all have updated pics???????