CAN SOME TELL ME WHY I GIVE SO MUCH OF MY SELF AND GET NOTHING. MY FIRST TRUE LOVE HAD A PROBLEM WITH DRUG AND VIOLENT BEHAVOR AND IT TOOK MY TOUGH LOVE TO HELP HIM GET OFF THE DRUGS AND MAINTAIN A JOB AND PAY HIS "BILLS" I THINK THAT I GAVE HIM THE STAIGTH TO REALIZE HE HAS "FREEWILL" AND CAN BE ANYTHING HE WANTS TO BE. BUT THE TOUGH LOVE WASN'T ENOUPH TO KEEP US TOGETHER. THEN THERE WAS ANOTHER WHO CAME INTO MY LIFE THAT WAS HURT FROM SOMEONE HE CARED FOR AND I TRYED TO SHOW HIM THAT LOVE DOESN'T HURT AND INSTEAD OF ME HELPING HIM HE HELPED ME REALIZE THAT LOVE IS DEAD AND DOESN'T EXZEST IN REALITY. I TOOK A "CHANCE" ON "THIS" GUY THINKING THAT HE DID TRULY CARE AND I WAS WRONG. NOW THAT I NEED SUPPORT THE MOST NO ONE IS THERE. I HAVE MADE A LIVING AT 7.25 AN HOUR AT 60 HOURS A WEEK TO REALIZE THAT NO ONE CARES FOR ANY ONE ANYMORE. I HAVE TO LEAVE TOWN TO BETTER THE LIVES OF MY TWO CHILDEREN. SO IF YOU THINK I'M DOING THE RIGHT THING, THANK YOU. IF YOU THINK I'M A COLD HEARTLESS BITCH, THEN GOOD, YOU MADE ME THIS WAY. AND NOW TO THOWS WHO KNOW THAT I WAS THERE FOR THEM, KNOW THAT ALL I WANTED WAS TO SEE THE WOUNDERFULL PERSON THAT YOU TRULY ARE AND MY HOPE FOR YOU IS TO NEVER GO BACK TO THE DARK WORLD YOU ONCE KNEW, THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE FOR A NEW DAY AND A NEW START.YOU ARE THE LIGHT IN YOUR LIFE AND NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU.