Alas Freedom of my Dreams
Last night I had a dream, something I hadn't done in so long. I missed my sub-conscious it has been good to me. Freedom to think and feel what I long to get out.
I walked into my past for a few minutes. I remember what I saw; I anticipated this for so long, it gave me closure.
Last night my past was my future and my future was my past. Something I have thought about for so long. I wish life were predictable. You know like those books you used to read in grade school where you could choose the ending you wanted, I would read through each one until I was happiest with the outcome! This was my dream. A book of question
I was taken back to a time when it was madness. I remember those people, I remember those promises, and must of all I remember the bliss of living each day without a care. It was the best time of my life, some will disagree. It was a time when I was living like a so-called rock star. You may laugh, but those nights of not knowing what was going to happen or what party we were going to. The freedom, the style, the glamour. Was all a clouded thought in my mind. Putting on a front until everyone was gone. I enjoyed the unstableness, or so I thought! This is what my dream made me see. I t was like someone poured milk into my eyes and all I could see was the cloudy leftovers.
I have realized my best accomplishment of all, is really who and what I have now. I am content in knowing I can remember the past anytime I want. Like opening up that book and taking a deep breathe before I dive in. What is even better is living in my present and feeling as thought I am appreciated and cared for without conditions. So I must say I would never buy this book with the old ending, just simply check it out from time to time.
I do miss the past, but to all those whom were apart of it I love you, know I think of it daily, and remember the good as I do. Take Care of yourselves and make your dreams come true.
To those in my life now, I love you more than anything and appreciate everything with a great sense of respect.
Until next time, I will see you in my dreams!
Sincerely,
Ashlie Danielle Bauman
