I'm the author of my life, unfourtenatly I'm writting in pen and can't earase my mistakes<3 ='( RIP CODE RED*So my name is Hillary. I live in a small town in Maine... It's pretty boring... Nothing to do at all. I am 15... I needa job. I have the best of friends... Heather, and Jaime. When ever I need to talk, they are always there... Thanks guys.The next best thing I have to Dakota is my best friend Jessica! She is always here for me. We can relate in so many ways. If i didn't meet her idk wwat I would have odne. I lost Dakota... And Jessica came a long and I can tell her everything. I love you Jess... Thanks for everything!But, my best friend is Dakota... No one can ever replace this girl. She was like my older sister. ALWAYS THERE AND SHE ALWAYS KNEW HOW TO HAVE A GOOD TIME! Boi, I miss her. RIP DJC! I'll never forget you. You were the only one who was there for me through good and bad. And ALWAYS made me laugh! I love yea hun. I'll never forget the times we had. None of them. Everyday I spent with you was a memorie that will last forever... And I mean we praticlly were never apart... Tooo many memories in such a short time. I love yea.So anyways, my life revolves around friends, family, shopping, animals, and chilling out in town. I attend PRHS. My family friends and animals are my life. So don't mess with them. I am a christian. I attend The Vineyard Christian Church. WONDEFUL CHURCH! The people here are all friendly and support me. I am going on a missions trip to Costa Rica in Febuary! I CAN'T WAIT! It will be an amazing experince...I am trying to "TURN"/"CLEAN" my life up... But once I start to somnthing terrible happens and I mess up... Somehow I always seem to. I dont know why. I should try harder but like I said once I stand up I fall back down again. Sometimes, it doesnt seem like it's worth it...=/I have made some awful mistakes in my past... A lot of them actually. some mistakes but some regrets. And I'm walking with them still to this day. It's like that haunting past... It just follows and haunts me. I learned from it and I'm sorry, but I still can not forgive myself...Time flys by so fast. It seems like just yesterday I was a kid. Those were the good old days. I could mess up, and people would still love me... No responsabilities. I was a good kid. Only if time could stand stilll.... I have four dogs, Spike, Seiira, Maxine, and Bently. I have four cats, Fred, Barney, Buster, and Dakota. I had a turtle.(RIP little bugger) I have a fish, no name. I live in a small town. I love it here but hate it at the same time... Is that possible? I want to stay here forever but then I waant to run away from it forever... Yeaha, I know messed up... I can't control what I think!Yeaha, I'm diffrent at school. Quiet, angry, and sad. But out of school, [idk y] i'm not like that at all. People who I'm close to seem to know how to hurt me the most. But that's okay. Cuz I'll always love them...I live with my mother. She is amazing. I love her so much. She is always here for me. I hope she knows I love her.I have a father. unfortealtey I only see him like once a week. [if even that] I love him so much, but idk if he relizes. I wish he would stop some of the things he does... But unfortuntly I can't change him... But no matter what he does I'll always love him. He has been here for me form day 1. What can I say my parents are the best!I have a few sisters. Rachel, brittany, Dakota and Jessica.Rachel is 21...She is awsome. I always looked up to her wen I was little. When she moved out, I was heart broken. I always wanted to be like her. Now, I hope she relizes even through all that we go through I love her. We fight a lot, but that dont matter. When I lost my friend, she was behind me supporting me all the way. I know shee cares about me and thats the reason why we get into a lot of fights. SHE CARES and wants me to change my ways.Brittany is 16. She is a starighht A student. Were toatally oppisite but I still love her. We fight a lot. But thats just nautral sibling rivalry. We usually fight about stupid things... Like the bathroom in the morning. I relize after my friend passed, she was hurt to and tried to comfort me.Dakota is 16 now. She passed away March 14, 2007. I loved her and still do. I wish she had chsoe a diffrent way out... I relize she was hurting but she could have talked to soemone. i'm not mad at her for her decsion because I know she was hurt. But I am dissapointed. I love her so much. Everyday I think about her and I miss her. You knew how to make me laugh. you gavve me good advice. You were always behind me supporting me. And we were always together. We just knew how to have fun. I just wish the pain would go away and I would smile like I use to instead of cry.Jessica... She is 27. It was a miracle to meet you. It was like Nate and Dakota set it up. You and I have been through a lot. We relate in many ways. We know how to have fun and you always give me advice. I love you!I have [one] brother. His name is leo. He is 12 years of age. He's never really home but wen he is we talk about a lot. We have fun too. We talk about things in our past and it helps me a lot to knwo my little brother really cares.. He supports me and what can I say he's my little brother. I love him...I have [three] neices. Madison, Aura, and Azure.MAdison is Rachel little girl. she was born September 20, 2006. She is adorable. And I love seeing her. She always brings a smile to my face., I wish I could see her more. I love her.Aura.. Is 9 years old. She is Jessica's daughter. I wish I could see you more. This summer were all going to go out on family days and have fun. I love you.Azure is 2.5 years old. She is a cutie. She makes me laugh so hard till I cry or choke. Now that's pretty funny. I love her... She is adorable... I love you. One more thing you guys should know. i am human and I DO make mistakes. ANd I'm sorry if I have hurt anyone or anything in anyway. I love you all. I made a msitake in January of "07". I broke into the local libray. i stole and vandilzed it. It was the worst thing I ever have done in my life. I don't think anything can get worse. I am sorry for what I did. I was on hosue aresst for 6 months and probation for a year. I deserve it. And I am very sorry...<333