*Owned by my Husband and Daddy, Jer*

im bratty(in a fun, playful way - im not one to like being in trouble, not even play trouble), feisty, passionate, opinionated, open minded, and say exactly what i feel. if you don't want an honest answer, don't ask me! i love discussions, deep talks and snuggling up with friends.

ive been in the lifestyle about 5 yrs, in that time ive done both real time and online, wandered paths, lost my path, lost myself and come full circle to finding myself again. in the end, i come out knowing exactly what i want and where i want to be.

***im a graphite artist, but do work in other mediums when the mood strikes me. currently the only originals i have for sale are at Moonflower Gallery and Gifts in Saluda NC. however, i am accepting commissions on a first come, first serve basis. (graphite or graphite and charcoal only). i also have prints available through my website http://amyluxartworks.piczo.com




"Funny face, with serious eyes,
Dare I peer below your disguise?"
~by malskept~


"I slept and dreamt that life was joy.
I awoke and saw that life was service.
I acted and behold, service was joy."
~Rabindranath Tagore~


"The longing to serve, to submit, to abandon oneself sexually, emotionally, and physically makes one a slave either to a man, a woman or to God. Submission to that passion is divine degradation."
~Dorothy C. Hayden~

The Art of Being A Slave
September 11th, 2005

A slave is a truly enraptured and enrapturing creature,
capable of the greatest pain and the deepest passion.
She is a temperamental creature, simultaneously fickle in her emotions,
and fiercely, ferociously devoted in her affections.
She is tumultuous and tempestuous, a mercurial maelstrom,
and she knows no other way to be. If she could, she would not change,
because, on some primeval level,
she realizes that the death of her passion would be the death of her.

In truth, a slave is not simply the finest of all creatures;
she is the epitome of all creatures.
She combines strength and weakness,
boldness and a certain shy innocence,
languor and desperation; she is both cosmopolitan and naive.
Her nature is an amalgam of all that is passionate in any sense of the word.
She is nothing without an owner, but in his arms, she is all things.

She is voracious and demanding, wanting nothing more,
and certainly nothing less,
than the absolute enslavement of the one she loves--the owner of her soul.
She cannot be, will not be, and is incapable of being completely happy,
until she knows to the very depths of her being that her owner is, in truth,
owned by the reality of owning her.
She longs for the completion of a partner in her own rapture/misery.

If you beat her, she will smile at you through her tears,
because you have reaffirmed for her your ownership,
your innate right to mistreat her if you please.
If you kiss her, she will bite you,
begging you with her passion to own her again,
and more completely this time.

She is dangerous and daring.
Self-preservation will never be her strong suit.
She will beguile you to her last breath,
knowing that without you, she cannot breathe at all.
Her vulnerability will appall you with the knowledge that you could never
—would never--
allow anyone that close to you, and at the same time,
arouse in you every protective instinct you possess,
to see that no one ever ravages this state of her-- except you.

She will define her entire world by your moods,
enchanting herself with them,
until she has internalized them so completely
that a single look from you can bring her to laughter,
or to tears, or to orgasm, or to suicide.
She will love you with an abandon that will leave you stunned.

She will worry you, and nag you;
she will threaten and cajole.
And she will do it because she is incapable of holding back from you,
even though she knows that you will pay it all no immediate heed,
because your attention is your whim.
She will revel in your denial of her pleasure. It only confirms her own desire.

But do not be misled.
She is clever and she is fleet,
and she will give you all you can handle and more.
She knows her own value, and is not afraid to demand repayment in kind.
She is not for the faint of heart, body, mind or resolve.
She will tax your every breath, your every thought, your every move.
She is responsibility for something far greater than yourself
and her independence in that will confound you.

Be wary, be attentive.
Devastate her if you can,
but know that she will only thank you for it if you do.
And much to your consternation, she will politely, sweetly,
touchingly beg you to do it again. And still she will want more.

But never destroy her adoration for you by withholding your own.
Never give her cause to doubt it, because if you do,
she will exact retribution and it will be the greatest agony you have ever known.
She will withdraw from you.
She will take her love and walk away without hesitation,
because she is enslaved only by her love for you,
and without that love, your power over her is gone.
She will leave you cold. And when she does,
you will finally know that all along,
you needed her too.

by dorei



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