my inserests..lol... well i love the outdoors, i am a pure contry girl. i live where the winters are cold , so forget about getting me outside to play in it well unless my daughter wants to go. i hate the cold, know summers i love. i like to go hicking, long walks in the woods, watching all the animals...lol... i like 4 wheelers, only when my husband does not try to make his own paths..lol...i fear alot of things, not really that much of an outgoing person. i like to do new things in life as long as it may not cost me my life. i have seen and been threw to many loses of friends and loved ones, not to repeat the things that they have done. i love old style cars. my dream car is the the first mustang ever made, 1964 and 1/2, yes i know 1965 are the same , it is just the thought of the year...lol.. i want it to have black interior and cherry apple metica pant job, with crome wheels. o hell yeah....omg i do. if it is a car let me help you fix it. i fix my own cars. fuck the shopes they just fuck it, so you have to take it back...lol.. sorry about spelling not my best subject...

i have thought long and hard about whom is my idol. at first i wanted to say my husband, but sorry baby, i do love you and you have done alot in ours lives, but i feel that my true idol would have to be...... my MOM.she has over come and been threw so much in her life. she went from my dad, whom was young and drank alot and was never home, to a man she was married to for alomost 11 years. durring them 11 years. as a child and an adult of them 11 years, my mom was never truly happy in the life she had. and she had it all, a house, 1 and 1/2 acers of land. a managers job, us kids, whitch there is 3 of us. and an ass of an husband...as the years went by, he just became more possevie, she was no longer a love to him but and item, something that he owned. and crazy.. omg yes... but when she finally told him she was done with him he broke down and begged for her back and of couse my mom came back. we all worried all the time.. he never hit her from what i know, but he started acting freaky and doing odd things to win her back, but it was too late he was still the same possieve person. and she fially got the balls to leave on june 1 st 2006. and i am so proud of her and the life she has know, my mom is remarried to her high school sweet heart...awww.. my older sisters dad, my sister whom i have never met. and she gave it all up in the end and started over to be truly happy but that is what makes my mom my idol.. she had the guts to follower her heart...... and we are closer know in this life then we ever were while i was a child... well my idol has changed, do not know to whom know. i really thought it was my mom, but over easter weekend on my visit out there i have learned the real truth of her new husband and i hate him more then i will ever hate anyone in my life. i thought my mom did something great for happiness and love, but she just fooled us all over again. he is a mean and crule person. worse then any man i have ever met. we got mom to come back to pa with us and then 3 days later she turned around and went back out there to him. she chose abuse and controlling over her kids, cuz she swears she is happy. she was out . i do not understand , why in the wold she would go back. kevin might have made life hell, but she did have it so much better with him then with tim. and for him to do the things i seen over that weekend i personaly would never go back. no matter what i felt inside. and to have put my kids and there kids in the middle of it and see and feel it all. wopuld have been enough for me to walk away. she says he just needs help. o well let him find his know help. and i man like that does not change, it has been his path all his life and his ways. he is not goign to change. wish she would see that before us kids are putting her 6 feet in the ground....