i feel i need 2 express wats on my mind so people can get a better understanding of my problems with relationships, sex, and love. First ill stat with relationships:2 me a relationship is life glue that sticks 2 personalities 2gether based upon a certian conection or that spark you feel. Second is sex: 2 me sex is a one of the major bonds that is the ultimate expression of your feelings. Last but not least is love: Love is an unexplainable emotion that u just noe is there, but its the most common and missunderstood emotion. The reason i bring this 2 any of the readers attention is because i..ve been called heartless, cold-blooded, non-understanding, stupid, unfeeling, and the list goes on. But im here 2 explain something i fall very easily 4 a female that i truly connect with. You will neva noe it unless i trust you 2 tell u. I feel that if u express yourself 2 early then it will be used against u in a numba of ways or you will get 2 attached. And 4 some1 like me attached is not an option because im affraid of the endin result. I feel that if i remain in the middle im safe. But something all ways tips the boat and i become either paronoid about wat will happen or i get defenseive. Defense is a better option 4 me because this way i dont get hurt as much. As far as sex im srry but thats the main way i noe how 2 express how deep i feel 4 someone im talkin2 or dating. I dont do it just 2 get wat i want i doit 2 show u an expression of how im feelin. And if u make it 2 the romantics then u are in 4 treat. Once you understand the beat of my heart u unstand me. TY 4 listening and srry 2 all those who have been hurt by me, im srry dat i choose 2 be defensivethis is my cooping 2 life. hopefully 1 day i will find help me take off these chains that bind me 2 this heartless sex prison. im out holla at ya boy!!