~*~*~*~*~*~*~My name is Stacy Michelle, I'm 21 and I'm a single mom. Those are the basics and that is me. According to myspace and everyone on it, this is apparently the space I'm to use to tell you about me and my life elaborately. Unlike many others on this networking world, I will spare you the boredom and not brag about myself, lie or exaggerate every aspect of my life hoping some one will think I'm cool. Cause I'm not. LOL No, I'm going to be real and honest and quite possibly a dork. Make of it what you will. Judge me if you must. I am not perfect by any means; I have many flaws. I apologize if I am underpar, not up to your standards which have probably been set by todays society of health and beauty. Nope, according to the docters, I'm considered obese LoL which I suppose I am, but all my friends and even some some men, insist that I'm just pudgy. I'm working on that on my own time and only for myself. No one else. Take it or leave it. Society is continually circulating and redefining the world's definition of beauty. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I was born in Lake Charles, Louisiana on November 12, 1986 to Keith Lejune and Angela Abshire. I was put up for adoption immediately and adopted by Allen and Cindy Carte from West Virginia. I knew nothing of my parents until December 21st 2007. I didn't know their names or anything. I knew I had an older brother and that was the extent of what I knew. I came home from work that day in December and mom(Cindy) said she needed to talk to me. I sat down and she said my sister called. I laughed "I don't have a sister" I told her. She handed me a sticky note with a long distance number on it...area code 337 for Louisiana. I sat back in awe as she explained that my 17 year old little sister, Tabatha, had stumbled across my dad (Allen)'s phone number. She got up the nerve to leave a message saying she was looking for Heather Lejune, not realizing that my name had been changed. Dad called mom while I was at work and when I got home, all this was spilled out on me at once. I guess I expected it. It's a phone call you wait all your life for and you expect it sooner or later, you just don't expect it to be "today". I took a deep breathe and dialed the number. No Answer. 5 minutes later, the number rang back. I heard my sister's voice for the first time and from the moment both said "hi" it was a fit of tears for ten minutes on each end of the phone. She told my my older brother's name was Adam and I had a younger brother too, Brad. My mom was Angela and Dad was Keith (They've been split up and haven't spoken since the adoption) Needless to say it was the greatest Xmas gift of my life ;) I love you guys! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I live in Chucktown,West, by God, Virginia and contrary to popular belief and sterotypism, it's NOT THAT BAD! I'm a South Charleston High School Graduate(2005 Dirty Birds). I do, aside from living in the boonies with all the toothless wonders, have several reasons to be happy in this crazy life. For instance, my beautiful son, Sky. He is my world, my everything. I was living a life of late nights and marijuana parties before I got pregnant. Giving birth to his glorious being loaded me into the cannon of life and shot me back into reality with a deafening roar. I live for him and him alone now. My son? Don't EVEN get me started. I would not be ME without him. I don't remember what life was like without him; without him ripping down the curtains, stomping on the dogs, waking me up at 4 am every morning to make sure I'm in bed where I'm supposed to be, and loving me unconditionally without judgement. His daddy left us and moved to Ohio to pursue a more relaxing way of life; a life away from temper tantrums and dirty diapers. I don't hate him, I've learned to accept that he doesn't love his self and I hope he finds happiness. Besides I get over $300.00 a month for support. That was his reality check! :) ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ As for me and my personal goals...I'm a writer. Those of you who know me have most likely read my work and I'm pretty sure you've liked it. Never had any complaints but your opinion is very much welcome at any time :) (Don't mean to toot my own horn.....but woot woot)I wrote a 600+ page Hanson fan fic story from the time I was 15 until just recently. (I lost count of pages in 2002) Unfortunately, I have subsided with my entries. I've been a bit preoccupied. And, No, I am not ashamed of writing it. It may be a fanfic, but it is not an obssessive story about raping Hanson. It makes for a fabulous read especially being able to see the years of production and my riding ability growing with each Chapter. I would like to be a journalist or a children's storybook writer if I ever get the hang of this "being a mom" thing and force myself into further education. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ What type of person am I? Lets see I've been beaten by an ex-boyfriend who I dated for 3 years, I was made fun of in school for being overweight despite the fact that I have a beautiful face, my family members hate each other, I went through a horrible "sexual" situation September 12, 2001 but the family won't talk about it, I hated the fact that I was adopted until just recently, I tried to commit suicide several times before I finally settled on just slicing my body open with razor blades for 2 years (but that stopped years and years ago!!!) I lost many friends because of my ignorant actions. You would think I'd be a pretty hateful person, but I'm not. I have found who my true friends are, I am learning to except my mistakes and be at peace with myself for once in my life, I have the self-esteem back that you select few stole from me. To all the people in my past that did me wrong and talked about me- eat your fucking heart out because I have a life that I know I can live and be happy knowing I have done the right things and made good decisions. Where are YOU now? ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I like to travel, though, I have no money to do it and my son isn't old enough yet. I have already visited many places and countries most people my age haven't event dreamt of. I have been to Canada twice, Nova Scotia, France, Czech Republic, and Austria. Some day before I pass, I hope to visit Ireland, Austrialia, Italy and the Carribean; as well as return to Paris and Prague. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world. He is the closest thing to perfect I believe I will ever find. His name is William Robert Day and we met through one of my coworkers when I worked at Target. He is her brother. He found me on her myspace page and thought I was cute :) We started talking on Yahoo and then over the phone. Our phone conversations lasted anywhere from 20 minutes to 2 1/2 - 4 hours. Sometimes longer. I didn't want to fall in love with him but its hard to ignore a connection like that. He is my very best friend, the only one who truly knows ALL of my secrets. He busted his ass working for a week and made almost $500 to come see me. He could have done a million more important things with that money but he CHOSE to come see. He rode an Amtrak 30 hours to come see me, he fixed my car, my family loves him. He spent the week with me and we simply hit it off. It came time for him to leave and neither one of us was happy about it so I said I'd drop everything and go with him. So I did, but we ended up in Nashville, not Nebraska. LoL ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I'm Wiccan and I'm proud of it. Go on call me a witch, I don't mind. I'm a solitary practitioner with help on the side from my boyfriend. I wear a pentacle at all times, I don't worship Satan. Satan is not a part of Wiccan religion. I don't worship what doesn't exhist. I worship the Lord and Lady and I believe that all Gods are one God. Many people hear the word "Wicca" and shy away. This is why a lot of my people are reluctant when it comes to expressing the greatness our religion. Let me tell you a bit about it so that you may understand more about it and relieve yourself the ignorance of the unknown. We belive that everything you do, good or bad, will come back to you 3-fold. Karma is a wonderful thing if you use it with good intentions. Also, the Earth is a part of us and if we treat her well, in return she will be fruitful to us :) The Goddess decides when she is ready to make you fertile to carry one of her children. We don't celebrate Christmas like you may. We celebrate Yule. We believe tht love, peace and tolerance should be practiced constantly. Now is that such a bad religion? Didn't think so. Blessed be, my friends