I told myself that I wouldn't cry
when it came to be this time
we all knew it was on it's way
I just didnt know it would happen today
I put it on my shoulders and carry on
thinking of the life that lies beyond
just something else to tear up my mind
I've fallen apart my pieces hard to find
I've been to the bottom so i know it could be worse
even though I'm not believed i truly feel cursed
I'm told one thing but it seems like another
i wish i knew a quick way to get it all together
I talk to myself for hours everyday
finding sometimes there are no words to say
I can't help the way things look for me
I don't know what people actually see
I know I'm being negative and thats not the way i am
but it's not like anybody actually gives a damn
the ones i thought did i just cant tell anymore
so I'll just walk this road till i find an open door
If I happen to make it out alive
I won't know how I managed to survive
maybe something i didn't know was there
will give me the strength i need to persevere.