I had warned everyone a little while back that I was going through some major changes in my life and that all of my "true" friends would have the chance to go through them with me as I faced each new change.
Well, here's another big change. The lifestyle between me and my signifigant other has been dropped other than during sex here and there. I'm really not sure why, I think it's just because I've become confused about life again.
The man that I have loved and cared for, would gladly give my life for now for nearly 3 years I have become confused about. I want to marry and he says I'm pushing it on him. The way I am looking at it right now is I have stared death in the face twice now and the only thing in my life I don't have right with God is I'm living with someone I'm not married to, hell, he isn't even divorced yet.
It seems like every so often in my life I go through a period of change that leaves me wanting. Right now I'm definately left wanting but for sure exactly, I don't know. I know I want my family to finally become a "family" if we are ever going to become one.
I often reach periods in my life of confusion and depression, unhappy with the way things in my life is going and feel as though there's nothing I can do about it. Well, one of those times has come upon me again and this time I really don't know what to do about it.
I'm hoping to make some new friends that have kinda went through the things I'm going through now that can help me a bit, and otherwise I'm hoping to meet some friends to get me out of this dip and maybe make life enjoyable again.
My page will be going through some MAJOR constructions with new pics, about me, songs, etc. I hope y'all can bare with me and work with me as I try to get something new set up because I'm just not happy with this anymore.